Being able to laugh at yourself

I started yoga at the Santa Maria YMCA about 4 months ago!  I was on a mission to destress my life!!! My anxiety was sky high and  I was ready to get into action because I was sick and tired of being sick and tired!  

Side note:  I’m going to admit to the world right now a huge admission that I try to never let show!  I AM so lazy and procrastinate like no other!!! I honestly don’t know if it’s that I’m scared of not doing something right or if I get off on prolonging every task til the last minute?!  The point is I usually do not do what’s good for me because I don’t want to take the time to learn or investigate it!

Well hopefully that gives you an idea of how desperate I was to improve my inner core!  I started diffusing and using Doterra oils! I joined the local YMCA and looked at their yoga schedule (and I’ve never Ever taken yoga, I just knew it’s reputation on relaxation).  We’ll talk about a fish in water! I was immediately hooked and good at it! After about 3 or 4 weeks of going 3 times a week I could really tell a difference in my lower back and neck comfort and anxiety level!  

Yoga starts at 10:15am Friday and Saturdays, we were told in the class that it would change to 10am at the beginning of March 2019.  On Saturday 3-2-19 I was per usual running a couple minutes late, Especially with having to put Tristan in the children’s room first!  So I’m hurrying down to the hall dodging old people just get my mat on the floor ASAP, as I approach the double doors I can see them cross legged and stretching!  It was a different instructor (which sometimes happens) and I thought to myself wholly cow I’m only like 3 minutes late and yet it’s a full class and everyone totally got here on time OMG I’m lame!!  I bit the bullet, saw a spot close to the front tip toed laid my mat down and joined the flow!

The instructor was different and her music was different the moves were a little different But that has all happened before so I ignored it and tried to relax and get zen!

10 minutes into it the instructor says to take s deep breath (witch I did!) Let it out (which I did!). Then she said “Good job everyone! Good class!”  And everybody clapped! Everyone except me! I pounded my hands down on my mat looked around and said our load “What!? It’s over!!?” The girls around me started laughing and said to me “ it’s ok this isn’t yoga!  That class is next”. I immediately realized I was actually early and just started cracking up!!! I was laughing and talking (trying to explain myself) I wasn’t making any sense but of course the women around me that saw everything knew exactly what I was babbling and was cracking up with me!!!

It was a good laugh and I needed it!  Two women came up to me and admired the way I could laugh at myself and they told me they liked my light hearted spirit!  

That is the person I want to be!  Light hearted and good spirited!! My lesson learned that day was to laugh at myself!  Even though my 3yr old is constantly throwing me curve balls and life is constantly spit firing curve balls I want to be able to laugh especially at me!!